Monday, February 25, 2008
Dear blog,
Life has never been more challenging. Stress? i don't think so. I guess dissapointment is part of me. Never fails to stick to me everywhere i go. From myself to the people around me. Maybe it can't be helped, we are human by the way. I made a mistake of trusting people again. One mistake i took high precaution to avoid in the end i trusted the wrong people. With that i lost the love of my life, my passion for soccer, and my frenz. I sacrificed all of them because i trusted too few people too much.
I hate it when im right. Assumption is never advisable but my predictions always hits the spot. I never thought the one person i truly believe in would make the same mistake he swore never to make. All because of a girl, what else. 1st San Wan then him. And ironicly i'm always stuck in the middle. I don't wish to, trust me, being the cause of everything bad is not something to be proud of. And to think that i supported his decision, i even helped him to get THE girl. Although not the girl of his dreams but atleast someone for him to start of with. Maybe then San Wan was not around to give his opinion on things but not to blame him, he's caught in his own deep shit. Without the confidence of his friend they would not even be together. And now she hates us? not that i care coz she is a nobody but to let him choose between frenz or her? wahdu3 who does she think she is? And he can entertain all this without any actions? Come on la bro, what does it takes to show you that enough is enough? After all this and u still think she's the one for u? DANM U ARE BLIND! Maybe u all think i don't really matter ar in all this or insignificant in any of this but hey i sacrificed too much to be dissapointed like this. If i wasn't clear then, well now im making it CRYSTAL clear.
Who cares now rite? nobody does, like everyone else i've known before they come and goes. Who gives a shit about me rite? But think it in a positive way ar ehk, this way u guys will be much more happier trust me. No soccer so she won't complain we take aaway her time with u. No chilling so she won't accuse us of corrupting u. U can spend the whole time in the world with her, only her. No need to spend time crack ur head when to meet frenz when to meet gerl. Stress free situation because we are ur frenz we would do that. Since she is so indecisive to let u go or to keep u around, well consider this our gift. Personally, i think u guys spend too much time together that there is no room to breathe but what the heck that's just me. Once a week would be sufficient so u guys won't go for each other's throats all the time. But again this is just a strangers advice do what ever u think is best nobody's gonna question u guys.
And about that day we 'TON' at cityhall we were hoping u would like to share what happen and what's gonna happen. But ofcourse we called and u didn't pick up so many times and all u can do is message us saying "ako tak meet korang nari". Fair enough that's a bummer then we got to know u meet her? Seems like u made ur choice so yah we understand perfectly. There's nothing more to say here. So if u think u can understand how i feel now? Good for u. Now u leave me with nothing, i have no love, no friends, no hobbies, all because i hoped brothers stay strong united. And i learned the hard way, what a mistake that is...thanks eh :)
Truthfully
Bungkos
crawling back to you
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