Thursday, December 28, 2006
A few hours ago i came to know that a friends relationship is on the line. She asked for help but i can't give any...i don't think im equip for that kind of advise. I could have saved their relationship but i feel helpless. I couldn't give any advise that i can agree on. I see her cry in front of me and then it struck me how trapped they were. Each wanting the best for each other but unknowingly they hurt each other.
Huda wished she had more time to spare but reality proves otherwise, she doesn't want her loved ones to feel left out but she has alot in mind and she can't take it all at once. And San Wan plak loved her too much that she has become a diamond in his heart. Very difficult for him to let go. This wat i call true love ladies and gentlement. Till death do us part kind of true love. The feeling is not made up. It comes about naturally and spontaneously.
This situation made me realise that i'm lucky to have found someone who has always been by me side. We share problems with each other and not keep it to ourselves. We express our love to each other and mean it every time. We try to show we love through our actions. We spend as much time together than when we're apart. How could i've been so blind? What i've been searching for is already infront of me and yet im blind enough to not see it.
I want to tell her how much i appreciate her being there for me. As a friend and someone i love. Nobody can ask anything more from a girl. Your beauty attracts almost every guy in town and yet you chose me to be with forever. At times i hurt you so deep that you could never trust me ever again but yet u did. U try to be there whenever i wanted you even when i didn't do the same. You make me feel i'm not worth your love but at the same time i can't afford to loose you. If a perfect girl exists out there, then u would be the one i've been searching for all this time.
crawling back to you
Thursday, December 28, 2006 <3
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Friday, December 22, 2006
I'm at the bus stop waiting for the bus haha sempat amik gambar haha. It was after raining that's why im wearing the jacket haha. Keeps me warm from the freezing rain. Can't wait to watch Happy Feet hahaa!!!
crawling back to you
Friday, December 22, 2006 <3
.:LoveMe:.
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Yesterday i was out the whole day haha. Can you imagine? During monsoon season? Raining all day and all night? Terrible day to go out i tell ya. But despite all that? it turned out to be a fantastic day afterall :)
I went out at about 12.30pm like that and the moment i stepped out of the house...it felt like the North Pole! Serious no joke. Lucky for me i brought along my thick jacket so it kinda helps haha. The train was danm crowded like always people going here and there. Armed with my MP3 i endulge myself with the sweet sound of music thoughout the trip.
When I reeached Dhoby Gaut one end was totally empty and the other was totally crowded. She's waiting at the crowded end...searched high and low and finally found her hahha. I hid and call her but what luck she saw me already what a waste...could have surprised her or sumthing like dat haha.
Then we walked in the rain with an umbrella ofcourse all the way to Cathay Cineplex. She in her gorgeous yellow...V-neck thingy?? haha and jeans. And always with the half-hearted pendant with my name engraved on it. But i forgot to wear mine that day...felt incomplete the whole time. But she made it worth while...always have. Then she had to go to the toilet...i watched her go...and i realise why i loved her. I love her because i can't bear to watch her walk away from me...
We watched Flyboys and it was awesome. Alot of action and a little love story just enuf to spice the whole things up. But sad thing is When the guy went to Paris to look for Lucianne...but she was never found...I wonder if i were to ever went to war...would she be worried like dat for me? I hope so...
Then we went to eat at Long John Silver's. Like always i order for her and i end up eating for her haha. I finnished eating 1st and i watched her...like in the movies i watched her in slow motion she's sweet when she's eating slowly haha...crap but i guess it attracts me haha. We joke around and talk about everything. After eat we walked to the mrt station.
I sent her home, on the way to her place in the mrt i held her close all the way to Pasir Ris. I never want to let her go ever...it was just peaceful when we were together. Like no place on earth. Sent her to the bus stop and kissed her goodbye...i wish we need not part but the day is over...but only to welcome another day...
crawling back to you
Wednesday, December 20, 2006 <3
.:LoveMe:.
Monday, December 18, 2006
Somebody asked me a question. Do we know what exactly is true love? To be precise...nobody has the answer to that question. But everybody is entitled to their own perceptions of what true love means...True love doesn't need any reasons to exist...love is not logical and cannot be explained. Love is from the heart, not the mind. Love is unconditional with its own power and magic. It can change lives and even ruin others. Every single one of us are looking for true love and still searching...singles, attached, committed or separated. Different people view true love differently. This is how i view it...
True love is when you dream of her even when u've never met her or known her. When every sorrow and every joy in ur life has something to do with her. You could see the future in her eyes. Your heart skips a beat every time she calls. And every moment u are awake, u await her presence or simply a note to show she cared. To me her absence is killing me slowly. When love happens, you don't think...u just fall. From the day u knew she existed...you could see urself spending your whole life with her. You never question why...u just make it happen. It is when everyday...you fall in love with her all over again.
So never ask me whether i know what true love means...I have found and lost them, so many times...to people i thought knew the meaning of love. You were the last to whom i'd give my heart to. So question yourselves...do you know what true love is???
crawling back to you
Monday, December 18, 2006 <3
.:LoveMe:.
Here is the Orion's Belt which is made up of three stars. I love this star it means alot to me and it is my favourite star in the universe. To me it symbolise 3 individual in my life who is important in every aspect of my life.
The 1st was someone i fall for a very long time ago. That was when i was primary 3, her name is Hazbibah. She was every thing i could think off in the next 3 years of primary school life. Seeing her everyday in school has kept me strong and gave me inspiration to excell in my studies. I never told her how i felt since then. But nonetheless someone i regard as an angel in troubled times.
The 2nd was someone i never expected to fall in love. That was when i was secondary 3, her name was Hannah. She was the one i felt most comfortable with although i never met her before. Met her in the IRC chat several times and might have written alot about her here oso. Loved her since i knew what she means to me. For 4 years never looked, never bothered and never wanted to know anyone else. Although it turned out sour in the end but nonetheless i won't make it this far if it weren't her encouragement and concern. My inspiration to do well in my 'O' Levels.
The 3rd and final person that means the world to me, is someone i got to know 1 year ago. It started out to be just a night spent all alone infront of my computer. Soon i got to know she stayed over at a frens house. My fren introduced her to me but she was sleeping at that point of time. Her name was Rahayu, the most joyful and mature 16 year old i've ever known. Eversince the first picture i saw of her...i knew she would mean alot to me. And it proved to be true. But wat is meant to be is never always meant to be. It just happens that she never treated me more than just a fren. And probably she never will...it still hurts but soon i'll get over it. Nonetheless someone who made me realise love is still out there...
crawling back to you
Monday, December 18, 2006 <3
.:LoveMe:.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Last night, i've been to a place in my dream. Its is a beautiful place in an island. I was in a house built by the side of the mountain. Standing on the balcony looking towards the sea. With te full moon shining bright, reflecting its light on the dark waters. With nature surrounding me and the view of the vast sea beyond. The feeling is incredible, i actally felt really seeing all these wonders.
It was a party, people were mingling in the guest room talking about their interest. Girls having fun picking out guys. Guys flirting with girls. The air is filled with alcohol and cigarette smoke that i had to go out for some fresh air. I opened the slide door and was greeted with a view more magnificent than the 7 wonders of the world. The sea breeze blowing across my face, cool and fresh. I Stared into wildernest of the open sea. Thinking of people i cared and lost.
I was shaken off by a smooth, soft voice. A beautiful girl came with a glass of 7up in 1 hand and said "I knew why you came here". She too agreed that it was the perfect spot in the whole entire house. And also her favourite. We chatted and laughed to our jokes as if we are having a party of our own. Then she asked..."since you were so nice to me, would you like to go to the jetty with me?". We walked through the densed forest where the path is lit to the jetty.
We sat tdown at the end of the jetty with our feet under water. We talked the whole night long only the both of us. And i can still recall the dream till today.
crawling back to you
Sunday, December 03, 2006 <3
.:LoveMe:.
I'm at the bus stop waiting for the bus haha sempat amik gambar haha. It was after raining that's why im wearing the jacket haha. Keeps me warm from the freezing rain. Can't wait to watch Happy Feet hahaa!!!
Here is the Orion's Belt which is made up of three stars. I love this star it means alot to me and it is my favourite star in the universe. To me it symbolise 3 individual in my life who is important in every aspect of my life.