Monday, February 25, 2008
Dear blog,
Life has never been more challenging. Stress? i don't think so. I guess dissapointment is part of me. Never fails to stick to me everywhere i go. From myself to the people around me. Maybe it can't be helped, we are human by the way. I made a mistake of trusting people again. One mistake i took high precaution to avoid in the end i trusted the wrong people. With that i lost the love of my life, my passion for soccer, and my frenz. I sacrificed all of them because i trusted too few people too much.
I hate it when im right. Assumption is never advisable but my predictions always hits the spot. I never thought the one person i truly believe in would make the same mistake he swore never to make. All because of a girl, what else. 1st San Wan then him. And ironicly i'm always stuck in the middle. I don't wish to, trust me, being the cause of everything bad is not something to be proud of. And to think that i supported his decision, i even helped him to get THE girl. Although not the girl of his dreams but atleast someone for him to start of with. Maybe then San Wan was not around to give his opinion on things but not to blame him, he's caught in his own deep shit. Without the confidence of his friend they would not even be together. And now she hates us? not that i care coz she is a nobody but to let him choose between frenz or her? wahdu3 who does she think she is? And he can entertain all this without any actions? Come on la bro, what does it takes to show you that enough is enough? After all this and u still think she's the one for u? DANM U ARE BLIND! Maybe u all think i don't really matter ar in all this or insignificant in any of this but hey i sacrificed too much to be dissapointed like this. If i wasn't clear then, well now im making it CRYSTAL clear.
Who cares now rite? nobody does, like everyone else i've known before they come and goes. Who gives a shit about me rite? But think it in a positive way ar ehk, this way u guys will be much more happier trust me. No soccer so she won't complain we take aaway her time with u. No chilling so she won't accuse us of corrupting u. U can spend the whole time in the world with her, only her. No need to spend time crack ur head when to meet frenz when to meet gerl. Stress free situation because we are ur frenz we would do that. Since she is so indecisive to let u go or to keep u around, well consider this our gift. Personally, i think u guys spend too much time together that there is no room to breathe but what the heck that's just me. Once a week would be sufficient so u guys won't go for each other's throats all the time. But again this is just a strangers advice do what ever u think is best nobody's gonna question u guys.
And about that day we 'TON' at cityhall we were hoping u would like to share what happen and what's gonna happen. But ofcourse we called and u didn't pick up so many times and all u can do is message us saying "ako tak meet korang nari". Fair enough that's a bummer then we got to know u meet her? Seems like u made ur choice so yah we understand perfectly. There's nothing more to say here. So if u think u can understand how i feel now? Good for u. Now u leave me with nothing, i have no love, no friends, no hobbies, all because i hoped brothers stay strong united. And i learned the hard way, what a mistake that is...thanks eh :)
Truthfully
Bungkos
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Monday, February 25, 2008 <3
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Wednesday, February 20, 2008
U noe...i didn't ask u to read my entries. I don't really care what u think of me. I live a care free life, if u think ur life is wonderful by all means SHUT THE FUCK UP! Nobody wants to noe REALY! But if u think ur gonna break friendships here's a heads up. U may be happy with him, but doesn't mean he's happy with u. So if u really meant what u said...then i expect u to be dead capiche?
P.S: To whom it may concern get ur facts right before jumping to conclusions!
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Wednesday, February 20, 2008 <3
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Monday, February 11, 2008
Yesterday 3.30pm, went Sim Lim square & bought maself a PSP Slim. Done that rush home to set things ready for the big night. finnished writing her card at 5.30pm. Went to buy her chocolates. Then 6pm met my bros at wdls interchange. Got sumtink to eat at LJS then we head to Tamp taking 168. 1st time taking so jakun haha. Talked crap all through the journey with my fone as always silent no msgs *sigh* Then reached there at ard 8pm walked ard see some chicks if there was one haha. Then we took serveci 15 to Pasir Ris. Chilled ard 2hrs nearby her block. Right on time 12am 10th Feb 2008 i called her to wish happy birthday. She didn't pick up. Called so many times ard 9 times i think still no answer. Decided to place the stuff right outside the door and hope she sees it in the morning. Made a last call which she picked up. Told her the surprise but was greeted reluctantly. Not the way i pictured it would be. 12.20am she pickup my call and she don;t want to take my presents for her. Told me to leave it there and in the morning she'll take it *haizz* she don't even want to see me for the last time. I was dissapointed but hey, we're nothing oready so why be mad? I couldn't believe it turned out tragicly. She even told me to go home when i took my time to comeby her place give her a surprise gift and she never even appreciate it. Sad ending to a beautiful love story. Luckily i had my bros with me. They lighten things up fer me. If it weren't for them i would be miserable all on my own. Here some picttures we took at DTE;
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Monday, February 11, 2008 <3
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Saturday, February 09, 2008
Well the time has come. Tomorrow is the day. The last time i'm gona try to win her heart. Although i know nothing will change her mind but still there is just enuf hope for me to hold on to. After tomorrow, i promise my love i'll live u alone for good...
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Saturday, February 09, 2008 <3
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