Hai farhan...im sori bout watever happen to u but this is the last tyme im writing to u...and i mean it..!
Farhan....hes a great guy,
good temper,
swite..and great to be with...
Let me tell u how i get to noe this farhan..i hope this brings great memories to u too farhan...well it goes lyke this.. 4 yrs ago...
i was inside IRC juz doing noting...bored and stuff....then the guys name hoe appeared and we did talk for a while...he appeared friendly but then its tyme 4 me to go.Then...1 mth later...
i chat with him again..this tyme we pend the whole afternoon chatting with noone except us..then we xchange phone number..
The next day...he called me..and we went on talking2 untill bout a yr..but strangely during that tyme i never met him...so i dont mind...then after several mth…I fell for him..dont ask me why but I juz feel he is a great guy….but somehow there is sometink he does not noe bout me…during the first tyme I chat with him he does not noe that I am 12..not 15…and I gave him the wrong name as I don’t trust guys then…so I was afraid if I tell him the truth he will leave me…well after some self-encouragement I tell him through email…unexpectedly he took this easy and he does not mind…as I has told him the truth…so that is when our friendship grows…however during that time I believe that friendship is better than relationship…so we never have a relationship other then a good strong friendship…so he called me everyday and I felt if there is one dae he did not called me my heart will juz snap…hehe…pretty crapy…so he called me everyday and it goes until the end of my sec 1 life when in sec 2 he will be having his ‘O’ level….so I decided to loosen the phone calls and stuff….but wat I did not noe that while I am away from farhan..my attitude is changing as my world of friends is bigger and I actually ended up in a first real relationship in the beginning of the yr….so I did ignore him for a long time since I am too occupied with my ex for about 5 mths or so…when I broke up..i try to contact him again and he did reply back like he used to be…our friendship still goes on….then I kept doing tht to him…appearing in his life then disappear again….i noe I am a JERK! Playing with ppl life…but I juz wanna him to relize that I am juz good for him as a friend…but now sometink happen and I decided to end it….
I am very sorry and I will not be turning back or will take back my words….farhan somebody out there loves u a lot….and that is not me….so treasure it and plzz forget about me….
Sincerely,
Nur Hannah
(Putrinur shufishafika)
PS:The exact words she wrote to me. She who wrecks my life and left it just when i needed her most. She left without a care and happily with another man. Sad as it may seem but i know who i am. Someone who doesn't deserve to be loved the way he dreamt he could be.
crawling back to you
Friday, April 13, 2007 <3
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